I get so scared

My husband is on a large fire right now and I am just having
those horrible feelings.   I'm sure you know what I mean.
I get so scared for him although I know he is not for himself.  
We have three children and we have had the conversations
about who would get what.  And I hate that at 24 we are having
to talk like that already.  I understand he loves what he
does and I do support that but I am a nervous wreck!  How
have you got through all these years?  I love him so much and
yet I feel as though it is work to be with him.   Is that because
of the profession?  I blame his job for a lot and yet I am so proud
of him. I tell everyone I meet that I am the wife of a wildland
firefighter.  I really couldnt imagine him doing anything
else, he is a real hero!  Well thank you for letting me write
because I know you will understand!

From our WF Wife Sister,
Vanessa